I don't know what it is. There's something about poker that keeps drawing me back in. It's not gambling per se, I don't go drop a few black chips on roulette or play the devil's game, BlackJack.
Two years ago I took out all of my money from online poker, save $500 which I decided would be "just for fun". Yeah, I ran that up to a couple grand again playing 50nl and 100nl last year and could have moved up, but again chose to cash out. This time I chose to cash out based on my business' growth and I wanted to be less distracted. I cashed out all the way. Not one cent was left online and I chucked my pokering money into the more widely accepted form of gambling, the stock market.
And you know what? It worked. I did a hell of a lot of work outside of my 9-5 job and it's paid off a bit. But something awful happened at some point, one of these poker rooms deposited money into my account to bring me back. YOU BASTARDS! So there I was a week ago with a hundred and fifty bucks in an online poker account, and a lighter load of work for my clients.
You know what happens here don't you piggies? You read the title of this post... you know how much I love pokering. I don't even have to explain myself do I? No I don't. Anyways, so naturally I started to play around my work, while watching tv, nothing serious just one table of $25NL Hold'em or $25 pot limit omaha hi. I really didn't mind if I lost the room's deposit, but that didn't happen and here I am with enough to move up again (over $500). It never ends.
What's kind of sad is that my old pokering friends Harry and Matt have basically given up the game so I can't claim its a social thing anymore. Harry never really cared about poker and played strictly for the fun of it (and still would, probably) and Matt did take it seriously but may have overestimated his edge on opponents. In all probability Matty is a slightly winning player whose edge was beaten by the rake. "In the poker game of life, women are the rake" said Worm. I still have no idea what that means.
So, I'm not sure where this is leading. Do I want to quit poker entirely? No. It's a great game to play but can take up TOO much time if I let it, so I've got to keep it in check. At these petty little limits, it won't make me the kind of money and residual income that growing my business will... so it's gotta be #2 by a long shot. At the same time, I realize I don't want to stop playing. Using my brain and guts to play a skill game for money is not a bad use of whatever intelligence i was given.
So, yeah. I'm a cardplayer again.